Lately I have been WEIRD! Even ask my poor husband. It's like I am in an awkward phase of life, not sure what's next, what to look forward to or how to handle it. So I usually bog myself down with thoughts and projects and worries and the result is this...
Why do I undertake home decorating projects when I know that my worst attributes shine through when I do?
Why am I a perfectionist?
Why am I clean freak?
Why can't I ever make up my mind?
Why do I say I am going on a diet EVERY Monday?
Why can't I stop eating when I'm full?
Why don't I exercise every day when I know I feel better and my day goes better?
Why do I LOVE Coca Cola?
Why do I watch SAD movies at 11PM and stay up until 1AM bawling my eyes out? (Alone because Brandon is the amazing traveler who is NEVER home!)
Why did I marry an accountant, I mean a traveling accountant?
Why do I love my traveling accountant SO MUCH?
Why do I fall victim to Cannon's conniving ways and give in to him?
Why do his squinty eyes and cheesy smile melt my heart?
Why do I even try to keep my house clean with a raging 2 year old whirlwind?
Why don't a follow Gospel principles ALL the time?
Why did my house feel SO BIG four years a go and now it feels like the walls are shrinking in?
Why do I even try to take Cannon shopping?
Why do I go through phases when I HATE change?
Why can't there be a vacation every month?
Why does laundry NEVER end?
Why do I have so much "STUFF" when people live in shacks with dirt floors?
Why am afraid to get rid of my "STUFF?"
Why can't my taste be more simple?
Why am I afraid to get old?
Why don't I have more ambition to set more goals?
Why do I lie in my bed until Cannon wakes up instead of getting up and starting my day?
Why do I lose my cool with him so easily?
Why am I blessed to have my life and not someone else's?
Why?
9 comments:
What did you watch at 11 pm that was so sad? I've never seen you awake watching a movie past 11 pm ever! P.S. thanks for spelling "lose" correctly, you know how that gets to me :). See you soon weirdo! Love you.-B
Oh my dearest Rache, how I miss you! From what I remember you are amazing, and your strength in the gospel has always been incredible. I am right there with you on letting those cute little faces get what they want ALL the time. :) Love ya and miss you!!
P.S. I also decide to start a diet every Monday, after my carefree weekend.
Oh how I can soooo relate to pretty much everything you said! I seriously just cannot make sense of myself- so I tell Tommy to stop trying to understand me and just give me extra love!!:) You are so great and thanks for helping me feel more normal! Love you!
Haha - Bare with me, I was in a silly mood when I read your blog.
Why do I undertake home decorating projects when I know that my worst attributes shine through when I do? - Because you are female.
Why am I a perfectionist? - Because you are married to Brandon.
Why am I clean freak? - I wish my kids were.
Why can't I ever make up my mind? - Female (again)
Why do I say I am going on a diet EVERY Monday? - Female
Why can't I stop eating when I'm full? - Because your parents made you clean your plate when you were a kid and you can't get over it now.
Why don't I exercise every day when I know I feel better and my day goes better? - Laziness
Why do I LOVE Coca Cola? - Because it is bad for you and bad things sometimes taste good.
Why do I watch SAD movies at 11PM and stay up until 1AM bawling my eyes out? (Alone because Brandon is the amazing traveler who is NEVER home!) - Female again....(females do weird things....just sayin...)
Why did I marry an accountant, I mean a traveling accountant? - Because he is cute (I'm not saying I think he is cute, but I am sure that is what you thought.)
Why do I love my traveling accountant SO MUCH? - Because he is cute....
Why do I fall victim to Cannon's conniving ways and give in to him? - Mom AND Female
Why do his squinty eyes and cheesy smile melt my heart? - Mom AND Female.....again
Why do I even try to keep my house clean with a raging 2 year old whirlwind? - Hahahahahahaha.......hahaha......hahahaha......ha...........ha. Try 7 kids....haha...
Why don't a follow Gospel principles ALL the time? - Because you are human (female has nothing to do with that one....)
Why did my house feel SO BIG four years a go and now it feels like the walls are shrinking in? - Because you are there every day....go for a walk.
Why do I even try to take Cannon shopping? - HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....try 7. It gets worse.
Why do I go through phases when I HATE change? - Human (No female again...just human nature)
Why can't there be a vacation every month? - That would be like Christmas every month....just wouldn't feel the same. That is what weekends are for....its like a mini-vacation every week.
Why does laundry NEVER end? - HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.......back to 7 kids again.....it gets worse.
Why do I have so much "STUFF" when people live in shacks with dirt floors? - Because your husband loves you and buys you good stuff....maybe that is why the walls are shrinking on you.....you are piling stuff up and the walls ARE moving in.
Why am afraid to get rid of my "STUFF?" - Because it cost money to aquire and lots of work to aquire the money.....it represents success (like it or not...I am past that now...if my house burned to the ground and we lost everything but the kids and the computer....I wouldn't shed a bloody tear....)
Why can't my taste be more simple? - Females don't do ANYTHING 'simple'
Why am I afraid to get old? - duh....human nature.
Why don't I have more ambition to set more goals? - practice....you have to work on this one...
Why do I lie in my bed until Cannon wakes up instead of getting up and starting my day? - Enjoy that one....it won't last long.
Why do I lose my cool with him so easily? - Parents do that. It takes practice...I think I will have figured it out by the time the youngest moves out. That is why Grandparents are so easy-going.....and the fact they just give the kid back when they are done.....
Why am I blessed to have my life and not someone else's? - Forordination. You get the life you lived up to in the prexistence....my opinion....not scripturally based.
Why? - Why not?
Wow! I was just hoping for some cruise pictures. I think you miss work cuz you know that I ALWAYS answer all these questions for you.
Ok, feel free to slap my husband. : )
Or maybe I should slap him! heh!
Although I have to agree with some of what he said, we women are crazy (as I recently discussed as well). We just are. But since you are such a fun crazy, we need to hang out again sometime soon!
Oh I just loved reading that. I am always going on a diet every sunday...so far I am on day three this week!
PS...the more kids you have, you learn it is easier to clean at the end of the day because it just keeps piling and you are cleaning ALL day if you follow them around!
Oh how I ask myself these questions EVERY single day! I have learned to let loose on some things. Others though still seem to bother me all the time!
Rache I'm still trying to figure out why myself???? I can't begin to tell you how many of those are me. Except the diet thing I gave up on that a long time ago. Thank you for making me feel like I'm not the only one in the world.
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